Arghhh Vista!

I think Vista can be a new button to trigger my cursing mode. It’s really frustrating! My laptop has a small malfunction and need a small (but long repair), so it has to be at the service center for a week (at least). I ended up using my dad’s laptop and his Vista is really testing my patience. To add to my frustration, my ISP (hah nak berahsia konon, tau-tau jelah siapa) has been really slow. I had a really good thing (right…) to write about last night, can’t even load wordpress on the screen so I decided to go to bed instead. When the morning comes, everything has gone with the wind.
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I’m getting a new PM today. I will not dwell into it; not like we can do anything about it. Sometimes I really envy the opposition party, who fight so hard for what they believe in for many many years. If I were them, I would’ve given up cause I’m not going anywhere. But you know, somebody has to do something and even if they fail, they’ve tried. And for me, that’s a true spirit for fighting on what you believe in. Maybe I should consider voting in the next election. How do I register? Why is it so inconvenient?
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Watched Megan got voted off on American Idol. I think this season’s show has gotten a little too predictable, and I’m losing my interest. IMO, next to be voted off would be Anoop and Scott (may not necessarily be in that order).
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My dad’s uncle passed away some time in February. We were really close, and I was really really sad. I missed the funeral cause I was still in Brunei. He’s one of those modern old folks, who lives in the city, has modern views about lives and always give you good advice. He’s always calm, takes care of his weight and diet, and healthy (for the most part, until he suffered from stroke a few years back). I was lucky that I managed to pay him a short visit, the last time I was in KL (some time in December). I remember, one of the things he said, “Uda bersyukur sebab walaupon Uda sakit, Uda tak menyusahkan anak-anak. Uda boleh jaga diri sendiri.”

Sedih tak? Rasa nak nangis bila ingat balik… Huwaa. Semoga Tok Uda dicucuri rahmat dan dimasukkan dalam golongan orang2 yang soleh. Al-Fatihah.

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The best things are free…

I think I’ll write a happy post for a change. I’ve been really bitter with my posts lately; I need to have more positive energy these days.  I’ve been trying out Tai Chi several times since I’m back.  The thing is I am this heavy and I can hardly do much exercise (but I am advised to do more exercise, heh!) Surprisingly, it was very pleasant.  I recommend it to anyone. And best of all, it is FREE!  All you need to do is wake up early, and drag your a** to Taman Tasik Shah Alam.  Every time I go, I see new faces and some regulars.  Imagine the sifoo is old and has wrinkles all over his body, but his muscles I tell you, mcm Datuk Kame (Dragon Ball).  Don’t worry, he’s married, does not carry any turtle on his back and I’m sure he’s no pervert!

The nice thing about Tai Chi is it gradually pushes your muscle to work out.  So most likely you won’t feel tired at all, but you’re sweating.  And at the end of the exercise, you’ll feel your muscles are loosened up.  It’s a nice feeling.  I can’t really compare with other methods like yoga or pilates because I’m too cheap to pay for those classes (and more likely to lazy to commit).  My parents have been doing Tai Chi for over a year, and you can see that their muscles are getting “harder.”  Though most of the participants are the elders and housewives, I do see a bunch of youngsters.  At least for the time being, I have something to look forward to once in a while.

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Sarah McLachlan is a genius.  I started listening to her when I was still in the states, and I can’t believe I fell in love with her tunes!  I know she has a new CD out recently; never got the chance to listen to it so went to look for it last weekend.  Unfortunately, it’s a The Best of CD and she only has 2 new tracks on it.  I may opt to download instead (don’t know when I’ll get to it).   But her old songs, I think I have most of them if not all.

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I don’t really do wishes on my blog cause I just don’t.  But this one is just so special that I’m willing to break my own rule (like I have one in the first place.)

I just heard that my good friends Ikram and Intan just got engaged last weekend.  Finally!  Oh my God, they’ve been together for so long and I’m really happy to hear that they’re finally going to seal the deal.  Honestly, I never thought I’m gonna get hitched and knocked up before them!  But what do we know about our future, eh?  Anyway, congratulations to both of them! I can’t wait for the day!  I’m sure the rest of the CiliPadians are also waiting for the big day.  I’m really hoping that I can attend – urgh, another perk of working abroad, you’ll miss this kinda stuff.

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Stupid is as stupid does

I’m annoyed with some people who thinks that they’re always smart or what they do is cool.  Well, most of the things I do is uncool, yet I’m enjoying life.  So really, what’s up with thinking that your life is cool?  Not like you’re getting a better pay, so get over it already!

Supporting Earth Hour is cool, no?  Seriously…  Earth Hour is a bunch of c***!  But you know, I kinda support it cause it’s a good start.  Tapi nak promo gila-gila mcm laa aku ni bagus sgt at taking care of my carbon footprint tu, tak perlu lah kan.  If you want to turn your lights off, by all means.  Switch it off and go to bed one hour early everyday (even better, no?)  But making a big fuss of supporting it yet your fuel consumption is 10 times of someone who drives a kancil and doesn’t know what Earth Hour is is just silly ok.  To me, Earth Hour kinda make sense for landmarks such as KLCC or Genting.  It’s even better if they make it a monthly event.  Maybe every final Saturday of every month, ALL landmarks will switch off their lights. You get the point, right?

There are tonnes of things that you can do to reduce your carbon footprint (I wonder if that person knows what carbon footprint is) – the fact is, if we go back to basic, there’s a lot of things that we can do to reduce our carbon footprint other than considering vegeterian as an option.  For example, switch off every electrical appliances (at the main switch) when you’re not using it, especially your tv at night time.  How about going back to using CRT TVs?  The fact is LCD TVs consume more energy – so why don’t we all use those bulky stupid box, eh?  I will not make the list out, we are all smarter than that, aren’t we?  Obviously it’s just a matter of choice and if you care, you will do it.  Creating awareness is another – but I don’t wanna dwell into that now.

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I’ve been at home for another week now.  My appetite is growing by the day – argh, susah btol nak control.  Temptations are everywhere!  I’m in no motivation to go out.  The air here is not as clean as Borneo, so walking in the afternoon is not as appealing as before.  Or maybe it’s just another excuse (in fact, it is!)  I have tonnes of things in mind to write, but am having problems of putting my thoughts together.  Will see if it ever happens…

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Request, request, request…

I’m back in my hometown. It’s almost a week and I’m already bored. Actually, I’m more lazy than bored. I have few projects in mind especially to do some revamping in my room to fit in the baby’s crib and baby’s stuff. At the same time I want to move the study table etc so I can start using the computer in my room. Other than that, not much to do.

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Honestly, I’m sick of invitations or requests in Facebook.  Stuff like XXX invites you to join YYY quiz etc.  Blearghhhhhh… I’ve got tonnes of them – once in a while, I’ll do cleaning up to clear the requests because it’s just annoying to see them on my main page.  I figured most folks who run those applications, just invite all of their friends to use them as well – if you’re one of them, please stop!  It does annoy people who barely run any applications on facebook.

As addictive as facebook can be, I think I’ve got other things to do with my life.  I can’t imagine those folks who upload their photos ever so often.  On top of that, they also have time to comment at their friends’ photos (selalu pulak tu).  I do too, but I guess it’s never too often.  I know I know internet is so mobile now and you can use blackberry to upload your photos and what nots.  But I don’t know if it’s really necessary.  It seems like the endless connection with internet consumes our lives – I don’t really like the idea.  But you know, whatever, that’s just how I feel.

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I don’t understand why most people I know assumes that we will be leaving my baby to my parents once he/she is born.  To be frank, we never plan to have a baby so soon; but since I got pregnant anyway, we are responsible to take care of the baby.  So we’re doing whatever we can to have the baby in our care.  The process is not easy, and we have to spend a lot, but it’s part and parcel of our responsibility, no?  Although it’s a lot of stress and sacrifice, alhamdulillah, so far our plan is going well.  We are trying our best, and insyaallah, it’ll all go well.

Not to say that I’m against other people who left their child/children to their parents’ care.  Every marriage have their own hardships and surely there’s a choice everyone has to make.  Something’s gotta give – be it your finance, or being away from your child/children or whatever.  It’s never easy… I’m sure if the circumstance allows, every parents would want to spend every single second with their children cause we never want to miss any single precious moment.

What I don’t like about it is, assumptions that people make – doesn’t mean that we live in another island, leaving our child with my parents is our first choice!

Just like people always say, don’t ASSUME, or you’ll make an ASS out of U and ME.

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I’ve got more to say (as always), but I’ll save it for later (more like I’m already lazy to type).  We’ll see if I get there.

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Plant life

I need new steel toes.  I went to the shoe shop with Duan last weekend, and they only have one type for women.  Men have varieties of steel toes to choose from, and the smallest size they have is 7.  My current pair is 5.5, and they’re slightly loose on me *sigh.*  I might have to drop by there again tomorrow – I think I’ll settle with whatever they have as long as it’s light.  My current one is kind of heavy so climbing up columns and vessels are difficult – Imagine pushing your weight up with extra weight on your feet.  I should’ve lost some weight since I work here – apparently, I didn’t!

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The department is going to order new jackets for everyone.  I refuse to get one cause I just got one some time in August or so – I figure, I don’t need two same jackets that I barely use.  My boss applauded me for my cost-saving consciousness decision.  I hope that’d keep my job. LOL!

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I haven’t been eating right since yesterday especially at lunch.  Yesterday, I went to the canteen to get food at our normal lunch time 11.30 am and there’s no food left – only plain rice.  I ended up buying this so-called roti John that barely has any egg in it.  I was surprised I lasted the whole day without having stomach ache.  I decided that I’m going to “tapau” food early today – go for breakfast, they always have better food anyways.  I was in line while eyeing meehoon goreng.  I was unlucky; the guy right before me bought the last portion!  So I ended up buying the mee goreng, which taste like crap (as I expected).

Later in the afternoon, I went to my doctor’s appointment and as I expected my tummy started growling.  I flea to DQ on my way back to work and got myself an ice-cream.  That felt good – certainly not healthy!

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Saving the best for last – now it’s time for me to start b****ing about life or someone or implying that I’m b****ing about someone.  Anyway, I’ve been annoyed with someone for a while now.  I am annoyed with the fact that she thinks that she’s always right – trust me it’s extremely difficult to argue yourself out of it.  At the end of the day, no matter what you say or do is wrong.  She is so good on getting her facts “right” that up to a point you just give up because you feel that there’s no point arguing anymore.  I don’t know, but I have learned for a while that sometimes, there’s no point in justifying.  It’s not even worth justifying in the first place – so why bother.

I have given up for a while in pleasing this person.  And I couldn’t be bothered anymore.  But sometimes if you think about how right she thinks she is, it’s just pissing you off.  But then again why bother, cause this kind of people is not worth it.

Okay, aku ada bende lagi nak ckp tapi berat plak topic ni.  So lain kali lah aku ckp.

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Aku akan balik shah alam tak lama lagi.  Welcome back to the dirty air of Klang Valley!  I will miss my home dearly.  I will certainly miss the fresh air and evening walk in Panaga.

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The sense of belonging…

Back to the topic of working abroad… Quite a number of people I know has the desire of working abroad – no I don’t mean it in a bad way.  I do too.  In Malaysia, you get paid peanuts!  Someone once told me that Malaysia is amongst the lowest paid engineers in the world!  It makes you feel pathetic, isn’t it?  What am I doing here?  Really?  But the thing is, I don’t feel belong elsewhere.  And even if I go abroad, for how long?  I can only save maybe a few thousands and by the time I got back to Malaysia, I know the money will be gone in a few months.  Life is hard!

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I love this quote: “When you pay peanuts, you get monkeys!”

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Financial crisis is a hot topic.  I don’t really know how long it’ll last, but I hope things will get better soon.  The more I think about what would happen in the next few months, the more I think that I can potentially get laid off.  Nauzubillahi Mindzalik.  We have just started our lives, and we still have a lot to come.  I hope it’ll all be over soon.  This is life with riba’. Padan muka kita sume!

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Collecting friends in Facebook or Friendster or insert-social-networking-site.  I’m annoyed with people who likes to add others just to collect “Friends.”  This one time, I was commenting on a friend’s status on Facebook, another guy (who I presume is his friend) was also putting some comments on the same status.  Seconds later, this dude added me as his Friend.  Just because we share A mutual friend doesn’t make us friends, isn’t it?  I completely ignored the request.  But really, he doesn’t have to add me because commenting on one’s status, doesn’t qualify us as friends – not in the world nor the world wide web.

And yea, should I add a friend’s spouse just because we happen to know that guy because we attend his/her wedding?  I don’t think it’s really necessary.  But well, I guess it’s a better justification than commenting on the same status.  Anyhoo, the point is, why bother collecting “friends” when you don’t really know these people.  Nevertheless, I think it’s cool to add some friends from my past life – college, previous co-workers, etc.  It’s kind of fun to see what they’re up to these days…

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Easily annoyed

I envy those people who’s pleased with most things in this world – I am certainly not one of them.  I’m so easily annoyed with politics, entertainment, celebrities, etc.  Ryan Seacrest annoys me – I used to think that he’s cute.  Britney annoys me, I can’t listen to her sing!  I can list thousands little things that annoy me, but let’s just save our precious time – it’s not worth it!

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I went to my routine antenatal check today.  I had to go through a blood test.  I know that I have this problem of “hidden” veins.  Lab technicians most of the time find it hard to find my vein close to the skin surface.  Today, this dude (never met him before) took my blood.  He’s trying to search for one vein, and decided okay, I will start my job.  He had the needle in my vein for a good 30 seconds, (I wasn’t looking, I fear blood!) before asking me, “Biasa ambik darah kat tangan mana?” I said “Tangan kanan sebab biasanya tangan kiri tak jumpa.”He responded with, “Oooh, tak jumpa ye.”

A few seconds later he pulled out the needle.  I thought it was all over, but apparently he didn’t even get a single drop of blood.  I have to go through it again!  He tried to look for another vein and started the process all over again.  I looked somewhere else and said to myself, “Better work this time!”  I felt the subtle pain all over again before finally it was all over.  That dude only managed to say “Sorry ye kak.”  I just walked away.  Relieved!

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I miss working in an open office with cubicles.  More gossip and more stuff to look forward to (other than the work itself) when I go to work.  This is the fifth office I’ve worked in since I started working in October 2005, and for the first time, most of us have our own office.  We do share our offices, but we’re no longer in a big room full of cubicles.  It’s kinda nice to have your own space, but I kinda miss the “socializing” part.  Or is it because there’s less female in the office?  Yea, I think so.  Less female, less drama, less things to gossip about.  The world would be lonely without women, isn’t it?

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I deserve a long entry….

I know it’s only a matter of time before someone in the office will start asking me about Malaysian politics.  The nice thing about being here is you won’t get annoyed with politicians that conquer the newspaper.  BUT since there is not politics to b***h about, they turn to Malaysian politics.  The thing is when someone asks my opinion, they will start giving theirs rather than listening to mine.  It can be a bit annoying… What happen in Perak really annoys me.  And one day someone approached me asking me what happened and starting giving me his views on the matter.  Dude, first of all, your opinion doesn’t matter to me, and I am already annoyed enough that I stopped watching/reading the news.  And to make things worse, this dude doesn’t even know the difference between DUN and Parliment.  Who are you to give any opinion about my country’s politics?  You know, things like these just ticked me off a little.

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I cried reading a blog for the first time.  Cried for watching movies or tv happened so many times to me, but this blog is just phenomenal!  I was bloghopping yesterday and found this blog.  It’s about a guy who started a blog to update his friends and family on the progress of his wife’s pregnancy.  But in March last year, his wife gave birth to their lovely daughter and 27 hours later she passed away.  So I guess the blog has changed direction now… But the thing is he is coping well with his loss and I was really touched and moved by his strength and how he goes on with his life.  I want to put his link here, but I don’t want to be googled, so if you’re interested, ask me on a separate occasion.

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This is the fourth country I’ve lived in.  And I live in 3 countries in my adult years now.  Sometimes, I just don’t understand why Malaysians are so into migrating especially to the west (be it the states or Europe).  I know the money is good, the numbers are reasonable, but there’s more to life than just money or having a cool life.  A lot of people asked me why did I choose to go home after graduation (fyi, I didn’t even apply for a job in the states, though I know I am capable of landing a decent one).  The answer is I am lonely – the lifestyle just doesn’t fit with me.  I don’t drink, I don’t go clubbing, I don’t smoke.  I love concerts and live music, but will I be doing it for the rest of my life?  I don’t think so… And the way I see it, a lot of our people who migrated to the west have to some extent compromise their religion e.g. takes up drinking etc.  I don’t think I can live with that.

I am not the most religious person on earth and I think I can live with the western environment and be okay.  But I’m more worried about my next generation – I don’t know if I’m capable to lead them in such environment.  Having said that though, I still DO want to have another few years of living in a western country.  I hope the time will come and I pray to God for it.  This time round I hope it’ll be much more fun because I hope I won’t be alone.

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I walk every afternoon before dark around my neighborhood.  I try to do it everyday, unless when it’s raining.  I found it peaceful and relaxing.  I don’t think I’ll be able to do it back in my hometown – the air is just too dirty.  I’ve got fresh air here, and driving to work with your windows down in the morning is a bliss.  I know I am bored and lonely here, but the truth is, I can never get this back home.  Just like what they say, enjoy the moment… And I’m trying to.

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I’m excited with the new American Idol.  The contestants have more interesting characters this year.  But now, the one that starts to annoy me is Paula herself.  Gatal betul bila tgk contestant kiut!  Blearghhhh… And I think she felt overshadowed by Kara.  Oh yea she does… Kara is way better, she’s good looking and has a mind of her own.

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Barbarian from the west

Haisy… kekadang aku geram betol dgn omputih yang dok dekat Asia nih.  Apa ko ingat ko dtg sini, ko cam bagus sangat? Hmmph!  Hari ni aku pegi supermarket, pastu nak queue balik tuh, sorg minah omputih ni beratur sket nye jauhlah dari line.  Being a civilized person, aku tanyelah dia “Are you in the line?”  Tak jawab.  Aku tanya lagi… Lepas pause beberapa sgt, dia jawab “Yea…” dengan nada yang tak convincing.  Apakah?  Aku malas nak carik gadoh, aku bratur je blakang dia.  Agaknya die terkejut ngan English aku yang bagus kot?  Wahahahaha….

Satu lagi instance, aku naik AirAsia.  Hah, bab-bab beratur nih mmg semua orglah kiasu.  Aku ni kan ke civilized, so as usual aku malas nak beratur, aku dok jelaa tunggu ngan member2 aku.  Pastu turns out line yang sume org dok beratur tu salah, bila bukak pintu, pintu lain plak yang terbukak.  So org2 yang pemalas mcm aku dan rakan2 pon beratur laa kat pintu yang bukak tuh.  Org2 kiasu yang salah beratur tu terus rush masuk line kitorg.  It so happens yang aku sampai agak depan juga, tetiba omputih ngan awek/bini dia (yg obviously dtg dr Asia dgn gaya dumb blonde) terus menyelit masuk depan aku.  Dgn selambanya, aku cuit mamat tu (dahlaa tinggi nak mampos), bila die turn blakang aku tunjuk die soh gi blakang tanpa berkata2 (yelaa kata dr west kan, patut pahamlaa).

Pastu mamat ni boleh cakap kat aku “I was queuing in a different line.” Aku reply “Well that’s too bad, you queued in the wrong line, so I think you should go to the back.”  Tapi mamat ni kan Barbarian from the west (dia rasa bagus sgt laa nak buat perangai kat negara aku), so dia buat taktau jek.  Ok fine lah, I’ve made my point, so kalau ko tanak pindah blakang, you can go ahead with your Barbarian attitude.  Sampai2 atas plane (sbb nak tunjuk sgt dia tak salah), dia boleh turn blakang ckp kat aku “Why are you so worried about, there’s so much seats left, aren’t there?” Aku dengan selambanya menjawab, “Well, that’s not the point, I’m just being civilized.”  Terdiam mamat tu, dan aku pon puas hati…

Ok, aku tak emo sebenarnya.  Biasa je tapi aku mmg dah lama nyampah ngan omputih2 yang rasa kite ni mcm baru je hidup dlm civilization, so they treat us like **** (letak laa apa2 perkataan yg korg berkenan).

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To boycott or not to boycott

I remember reading a statement from Selangor’s MB – boycotting US products will only kill local businesses.  He’s right – a lot of local people are holding the franchise, and if they cannot sell, they lose more than the bigger companies.  We can opt to boycott the bigger business like banks, financial institutions and all that jazz.  Anyway, I don’t have any need to boycott any company.  Living here, most of the time the option I have is local businesses – so I’m good.

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Brangelina is OVERRATED!  I used to be a fan of Brad & Jen because they seemed to be a couple that complement each other, but when Brad is with Angelina, it looks to me as if Angelina is controlling the household.  It seems like Angelina is now parading her life with many kids – sort of exploiting her own children.  Honestly, I prefer celebrities like Oprah or Mariah Carey who donated a camp or school to support a bigger pool of orphans or poor kids.  But that’s just me – and my opinion doesn’t matter.

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I am pissed with the supermarket near my house.  On Wednesday, I went there to buy tangerines that cost me $2.20 per kg, but I just went today and now they cost $3.80 per kg for the same kind.  What kind of business are you running dude?  So I opt for bananas instead.

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I’m a sucker for American Idol – I think I grew up with talent shows.  Remember Asia Bagus, Sinaran Passport Kegemilangan (albeit the horrible stand-up comedies)?  I’m glad season 8 is back.  And I like the new judge, Kara!

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Tina Fey is a genius!  I’ve been a fan since she does the SNL news with Jimmy Fallon.  Mean Girls is a work of a genius… And 30 Rock – need I say more?

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