Never been kissed…

is a classic. But it has got nothing to do with this entry. I just realized today that Jessica Alba is in it, and urgh she looked so sorority kind of gal. Euuuwww…

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I’ve flown safely to Miri and now I’m back in Brunei. It’s been hectic since I’ve got some errands to run and trying to fit in nursing in between. Will need to prepare for my return to the office and I’m having a big supply crisis. Hopefully I can try to rectify it this week, then I’m good to go (to work that is). Anyway, flying with Hilmy is a challenge, even if he sleeps most of the time. And having tonnes of stuff with me is not helping either. But alhamdulillah, all is well. I’m blessed.

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The DVD player decided to not work on me. After 3 months of waiting to have tv series marathons (yes, several series), I guess I have to put the plan on the shelf (yet again.) Last Sunday, we watched Night at the Museum 2 (though we haven’t finished). Then the DVD player decided to go kaput (sp?) so now I’ll just have to wait till Duan’s back so we can get it fixed. So now I’ve been entertained by E! most of the time. I wonder when will they air the new episode of Keeping Up with Kardashians. They all look so fake but I like to watch the show anyway. Damn reality tv! I’m a Celebrity Get Me Out of Here – aahhhh, I wanna watch that!

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I think I’m Paranoid

Hilmy turns 2 months today, can’t believe I’ve been home for almost 3 months and stayed at home for the most part. We will take our first trip back to Brunei this Saturday. I’m really worried about H1N1 especially when all cases in Malaysia made a trip to the airport when they arrived. Bela had warned me to make sure I wash my hands regularly. I will avoid making physical contact with anyone unless I really have to. If I ever did, then will go straight to the restroom to wash my hands. Sounds like I’m paranoid, ah well I’m with a baby, I have to!

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I found out last Saturday that Adam Lambert has “came out.” Then saw an excerpt of his interview, he said that he felt weird “coming out” cause he was never “in.” I think that’s kinda funny. Ah well, people never ask, so he never say anything… I think it’s kinda obvious anyways…

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I made a short trip to Subang Parade to buy the necessities with Bela on Monday. It was such a quick shopping trip of buying stuff according to list only. But I manage to grab one cargo pants… LOL! I do not consider myself a shopaholic but tell you what, retail therapy is always good. As an award to ourselves for being so good at doing a quick shop, we each grab a double scoop of Baskin Robin. Haih, camne nak kurus ni?

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So bye bye KL and welcome Borneo. Will be back in September for Eid insyaAllah. This will be my longest run in Borneo without going back, hope it’ll all be okay. Please laa jgn homesick .

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A short update

I have an overdue entry… I don’t know when I’ll finish it, so I skip that and continue with a new one because I feel like it.

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I know this story dah basi.  I’m glad that Kris Allen won American Idol.  Sorry, but I think Adam is too gay to win (whatever that means).  I watched the finale and it was awesome!  Look at all those line-ups!  Made me wonder if the economy is that bad that these people are not going round on tours. hehehe.

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I’m now a mother.  It is still surreal.  I thought taking care of a newborn is a piece of cake, I’m dead wrong!  It is hard work and I’m sleep deprived. LOL!  Not gonna talk much about motherhood now, but if I were to turn back time to when I was still pregnant, I’ll do more homework.  I’ll read more about taking care of newborn and breastfeeding.  Ah right, I thought breastfeeding was a piece of cake.  Come on, people has been doing it for thousands of years… And many many years ago, there is no books or anything to refer to.  I remember, my grandma once told me, “Anak2 aku semuanya minum susu badan ni, dulu mana ada formula.”  And she’s done it for a dozen time, why can’t I?  But yes I can, after a lot of reading and self-motivation.  But I’ll be back at work in a few weeks time, what happen then, only God knows.

Ah, and if any working mothers reading this, how can I make pumping less painful.  I hate and dread doing it!

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Mengular!  Since Hilmy was born, the most trip I make is to the hospital for check-ups and sickness.  Duan perasan sorang mak guard ni pas aku bersalin yang memang kuat sgt laa mengular.  Everytime Duan gi memana, mesti nampak mak guard ni sembang ngan best nya dgn org lain2.  Yang kelakarnya, everytime kitorg gi hospital balik, mesti nampak mak guard ni berlegar2 or sembang2 juga, bila ntah dia wat keje dia (obviously, she’s got nothing better to do).  Skali ni aku nak discharge Hilmy (masa Hilmy kena admitted sb demam on his 3rd week of life), dia ada plak kat Tingkat bawah, bukankah dia keje kat Tingkat 2?  Bley je dia berlegar2… Anyway, since then, whenever we go to the hospital, we never fail to find her doing everything else except for guarding, I suppose… Ok I know it’s not funny, but to us, it is!

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I’m going back to the island of Borneo in less than 2 weeks.  I don’t know if I’m looking forward to it or not.  I kinda excited because I miss the leisure of our own place. But being away from my parents and friends (albeit not going anywhere for fun for almost 2 months) is a big turn off.  I guess it’s really the psychological effect, although you’re not seeing your friends, the short distance between you and them make things so much better.  Plus, I’ll miss the leisure of good food (of my mom’s cooking) and the variety of outside food around here.  For instance, I have never been able to find good mangoes in Brunei or Miri.  Even stuff as simple as fresh taugeh is hard to find… *sigh*

Anyhoo, this is no longer a short update, so I shall go back to digging the fridge for some good food.  And yes, I need to lose weight, BIG TIME!

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Six degrees of separation

I remember that one fine day (quite a while back), I found out that Duan knows my classmate in Sunway, Lamp or Lampu (ye, bukan nama sebenar.)  They went to the same school, but have lost contact ever since.  I haven’t been in touch with him either, I think the last time I saw him was when we were invited to his wedding.  I went to the wedding with Ijat and Nette (Ellina ko ada ke? aku pon tak igt) and we bought a lamp as a wedding present.  Not really on purpose though, but the lamp was cute.

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Duan and I went to A’s wedding (some time in early 2007).  This friend invited a girl, who’s apparently F’s ex (A and the girl are still friends).  The girl came with her boyfriend, and this boyfriend turns out to be someone that Duan knows.

*A and F were randomly assigned letters to hide the real identity of the individuals.

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I invited a colleague to come to my wedding last year.  He couldn’t make it as he already planned to go back a month later with his family for a long holiday.  A few days later, he came up to me and said, “Don’t worry, my in-laws will come to your wedding on my behalf.”  It turns out that his in-laws are friends with my parents.

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What’s the point of this entry?  Nothing really.  I really don’t have much to do or much to talk about.

Some people say, “Never say never.”  I truly believe in it.

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The day my blog becomes a mother-to-be’s blog

Dear Diary,

I have been camping at my parents’ for a few weeks now, and I am tired of carrying this big weight on my belly.  I’m waiting for the husband to start his two weeks leave this weekend, then I’m all set for labor (well almost, or I pretend to).  I hope the baby will come out on schedule or a few days earlier, but one can only hope and pray, God does the rest.

I’ve been reading a few (I lied, it’s more than a few) blogs by expecting mothers and new mothers.  Some experiences are good and very positive, some are scary and some are sad (okay, some are just annoying).  Whatever it is, I will try to remain as positive as I can, and pray as much as I can.  InsyaAllah… it’ll all be okay.

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Yeah, okay, I’m done writing like someone else or attempting to mock someone else’s writing.  But the content is all real, I do mean it.  It’s just that I’m not the type of person who expresses my feelings (on my personal life) on my blog.  I have tonnes of things to say/do/read/prepare especially when the unknown day is approaching – being me, I am no optimist and I surely hope it’ll all be okay.  As much as I can’t wait for the baby to come out, I am also scared s***.  Not just because of the pain that I’ll go through, but the huge responsibility that I’ll be holding.

Will I be a good mom?  Only time will tell…

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Since I’m using the word scared a lot, it has just crossed my mind, the use of “scared” vs “afraid.”  I notice that a lot of Malaysian (I really mean A LOT) use the word “scared” in the wrong context sometimes.  For example, “I’m scared that he doesn’t turn up to the meeting today.”  IMO, this is a literal translation of “Saya takut dia tak datang mesyuarat hari ni” (Excuse my Malay grammar), no?  It is supposed to be, “I’m afraid that he doesn’t turn up to the meeting today.”

You know why?  Scared and afraid are two different types of “takut” (kelakar plak ayat aku).  Scared is more suitable to describe a scary situation, such as “You scared me! I thought you were a ghost.” (Cuba letak afraid kat dlm ayat tu, tak kena kan?) But afraid is more suitable to describe a worrying situation, such as “I’m afraid if anything happens to her.  She’s never late.”

Tetiba aku jadi cikgu English plak.  Anyhoo, please correct me if I’m wrong – but this is one common mistake that a lot of Malaysians do and I’m so annoyed by it.  If I am wrong, please let me know so that I won’t be annoyed anymore… cheers!

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Insert your own title

My friend, the nanny* and I have been good silent readers for several blogs. Some blogs amuse us just because of the language that they are using. The English they use sounds more like a direct translation of Malay to English than proper English sentences. I just don’t understand, why can’t just these people write in Malay? There’s nothing wrong with it… Is it cool to write in English? Ermm, not really, and it’s even uncool to write in English and have grammatical errors all over the place. Maybe these people should try writing in Words to check on their grammar before posting it, no? Typos, some grammatical errors (yours truly have those too) are acceptable. But errors all over the place and not comprehensive sentence structures are just bugging me!

I know quite a number of good blogs that are written in Malay. And some even choose to write in how ever way they speak in real life, which make them sound just fine. I pick some good examples of my friends who blog (I’m not promoting them nor being biased because they are my friends, but I really enjoy their blog, I do) – Jaja and Sarah. I don’t want to put many examples, I’m sure you get the point.

*The Nanny is a friend of mine, who is not my nanny nor works as a nanny. I called her the nanny here because she borrowed The Nanny and The Nanny Diaries (where did I keep this book?) from me. She doesn’t mind working as a nanny if she is paid with her current full salary (including benefits, etc). She used to drive VW GTi for a short while, until she realized that the car is just a part of her and the magic card**’s imagination.

**The magic card is another friend of mine, I will tell a story about her in a different post.

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I’m disappointed – some blogs that I really like are moving places. Arghhhh, it’s like someone took away the tv from me. Since I’m back, I rarely watch any tv (my mom owns the remote, and I have to beg her to change the channel), so these blogs are my only source of entertainment. My life is pathetic, I know…

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Arghhh Vista!

I think Vista can be a new button to trigger my cursing mode. It’s really frustrating! My laptop has a small malfunction and need a small (but long repair), so it has to be at the service center for a week (at least). I ended up using my dad’s laptop and his Vista is really testing my patience. To add to my frustration, my ISP (hah nak berahsia konon, tau-tau jelah siapa) has been really slow. I had a really good thing (right…) to write about last night, can’t even load wordpress on the screen so I decided to go to bed instead. When the morning comes, everything has gone with the wind.
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I’m getting a new PM today. I will not dwell into it; not like we can do anything about it. Sometimes I really envy the opposition party, who fight so hard for what they believe in for many many years. If I were them, I would’ve given up cause I’m not going anywhere. But you know, somebody has to do something and even if they fail, they’ve tried. And for me, that’s a true spirit for fighting on what you believe in. Maybe I should consider voting in the next election. How do I register? Why is it so inconvenient?
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Watched Megan got voted off on American Idol. I think this season’s show has gotten a little too predictable, and I’m losing my interest. IMO, next to be voted off would be Anoop and Scott (may not necessarily be in that order).
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My dad’s uncle passed away some time in February. We were really close, and I was really really sad. I missed the funeral cause I was still in Brunei. He’s one of those modern old folks, who lives in the city, has modern views about lives and always give you good advice. He’s always calm, takes care of his weight and diet, and healthy (for the most part, until he suffered from stroke a few years back). I was lucky that I managed to pay him a short visit, the last time I was in KL (some time in December). I remember, one of the things he said, “Uda bersyukur sebab walaupon Uda sakit, Uda tak menyusahkan anak-anak. Uda boleh jaga diri sendiri.”

Sedih tak? Rasa nak nangis bila ingat balik… Huwaa. Semoga Tok Uda dicucuri rahmat dan dimasukkan dalam golongan orang2 yang soleh. Al-Fatihah.

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The best things are free…

I think I’ll write a happy post for a change. I’ve been really bitter with my posts lately; I need to have more positive energy these days.  I’ve been trying out Tai Chi several times since I’m back.  The thing is I am this heavy and I can hardly do much exercise (but I am advised to do more exercise, heh!) Surprisingly, it was very pleasant.  I recommend it to anyone. And best of all, it is FREE!  All you need to do is wake up early, and drag your a** to Taman Tasik Shah Alam.  Every time I go, I see new faces and some regulars.  Imagine the sifoo is old and has wrinkles all over his body, but his muscles I tell you, mcm Datuk Kame (Dragon Ball).  Don’t worry, he’s married, does not carry any turtle on his back and I’m sure he’s no pervert!

The nice thing about Tai Chi is it gradually pushes your muscle to work out.  So most likely you won’t feel tired at all, but you’re sweating.  And at the end of the exercise, you’ll feel your muscles are loosened up.  It’s a nice feeling.  I can’t really compare with other methods like yoga or pilates because I’m too cheap to pay for those classes (and more likely to lazy to commit).  My parents have been doing Tai Chi for over a year, and you can see that their muscles are getting “harder.”  Though most of the participants are the elders and housewives, I do see a bunch of youngsters.  At least for the time being, I have something to look forward to once in a while.

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Sarah McLachlan is a genius.  I started listening to her when I was still in the states, and I can’t believe I fell in love with her tunes!  I know she has a new CD out recently; never got the chance to listen to it so went to look for it last weekend.  Unfortunately, it’s a The Best of CD and she only has 2 new tracks on it.  I may opt to download instead (don’t know when I’ll get to it).   But her old songs, I think I have most of them if not all.

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I don’t really do wishes on my blog cause I just don’t.  But this one is just so special that I’m willing to break my own rule (like I have one in the first place.)

I just heard that my good friends Ikram and Intan just got engaged last weekend.  Finally!  Oh my God, they’ve been together for so long and I’m really happy to hear that they’re finally going to seal the deal.  Honestly, I never thought I’m gonna get hitched and knocked up before them!  But what do we know about our future, eh?  Anyway, congratulations to both of them! I can’t wait for the day!  I’m sure the rest of the CiliPadians are also waiting for the big day.  I’m really hoping that I can attend – urgh, another perk of working abroad, you’ll miss this kinda stuff.

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Stupid is as stupid does

I’m annoyed with some people who thinks that they’re always smart or what they do is cool.  Well, most of the things I do is uncool, yet I’m enjoying life.  So really, what’s up with thinking that your life is cool?  Not like you’re getting a better pay, so get over it already!

Supporting Earth Hour is cool, no?  Seriously…  Earth Hour is a bunch of c***!  But you know, I kinda support it cause it’s a good start.  Tapi nak promo gila-gila mcm laa aku ni bagus sgt at taking care of my carbon footprint tu, tak perlu lah kan.  If you want to turn your lights off, by all means.  Switch it off and go to bed one hour early everyday (even better, no?)  But making a big fuss of supporting it yet your fuel consumption is 10 times of someone who drives a kancil and doesn’t know what Earth Hour is is just silly ok.  To me, Earth Hour kinda make sense for landmarks such as KLCC or Genting.  It’s even better if they make it a monthly event.  Maybe every final Saturday of every month, ALL landmarks will switch off their lights. You get the point, right?

There are tonnes of things that you can do to reduce your carbon footprint (I wonder if that person knows what carbon footprint is) – the fact is, if we go back to basic, there’s a lot of things that we can do to reduce our carbon footprint other than considering vegeterian as an option.  For example, switch off every electrical appliances (at the main switch) when you’re not using it, especially your tv at night time.  How about going back to using CRT TVs?  The fact is LCD TVs consume more energy – so why don’t we all use those bulky stupid box, eh?  I will not make the list out, we are all smarter than that, aren’t we?  Obviously it’s just a matter of choice and if you care, you will do it.  Creating awareness is another – but I don’t wanna dwell into that now.

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I’ve been at home for another week now.  My appetite is growing by the day – argh, susah btol nak control.  Temptations are everywhere!  I’m in no motivation to go out.  The air here is not as clean as Borneo, so walking in the afternoon is not as appealing as before.  Or maybe it’s just another excuse (in fact, it is!)  I have tonnes of things in mind to write, but am having problems of putting my thoughts together.  Will see if it ever happens…

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Request, request, request…

I’m back in my hometown. It’s almost a week and I’m already bored. Actually, I’m more lazy than bored. I have few projects in mind especially to do some revamping in my room to fit in the baby’s crib and baby’s stuff. At the same time I want to move the study table etc so I can start using the computer in my room. Other than that, not much to do.

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Honestly, I’m sick of invitations or requests in Facebook.  Stuff like XXX invites you to join YYY quiz etc.  Blearghhhhhh… I’ve got tonnes of them – once in a while, I’ll do cleaning up to clear the requests because it’s just annoying to see them on my main page.  I figured most folks who run those applications, just invite all of their friends to use them as well – if you’re one of them, please stop!  It does annoy people who barely run any applications on facebook.

As addictive as facebook can be, I think I’ve got other things to do with my life.  I can’t imagine those folks who upload their photos ever so often.  On top of that, they also have time to comment at their friends’ photos (selalu pulak tu).  I do too, but I guess it’s never too often.  I know I know internet is so mobile now and you can use blackberry to upload your photos and what nots.  But I don’t know if it’s really necessary.  It seems like the endless connection with internet consumes our lives – I don’t really like the idea.  But you know, whatever, that’s just how I feel.

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I don’t understand why most people I know assumes that we will be leaving my baby to my parents once he/she is born.  To be frank, we never plan to have a baby so soon; but since I got pregnant anyway, we are responsible to take care of the baby.  So we’re doing whatever we can to have the baby in our care.  The process is not easy, and we have to spend a lot, but it’s part and parcel of our responsibility, no?  Although it’s a lot of stress and sacrifice, alhamdulillah, so far our plan is going well.  We are trying our best, and insyaallah, it’ll all go well.

Not to say that I’m against other people who left their child/children to their parents’ care.  Every marriage have their own hardships and surely there’s a choice everyone has to make.  Something’s gotta give – be it your finance, or being away from your child/children or whatever.  It’s never easy… I’m sure if the circumstance allows, every parents would want to spend every single second with their children cause we never want to miss any single precious moment.

What I don’t like about it is, assumptions that people make – doesn’t mean that we live in another island, leaving our child with my parents is our first choice!

Just like people always say, don’t ASSUME, or you’ll make an ASS out of U and ME.

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I’ve got more to say (as always), but I’ll save it for later (more like I’m already lazy to type).  We’ll see if I get there.

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